On Sunday morning, my dear son Matt and I had just finished breakfast.
We were talking about his extraordinary accomplishments during the fall semester at Cal State Northridge – three A’s and one A-minus, earned by the most dedicated young man I ever have known.
Walking outside, I wanted to show off the world-class cleanliness of car.
It felt as if my car was throwing out its chest in a surge of rare pride.
First time my car had been in this faultless state since one minute after rolling off the assembly line.
Matt’s all-seeing eyes espied a raggedy informal notepad in a corner. The scratch pad and I were about the same age.
“Want me to throw it away, Dad?” Matt asked.
No, I will take it to the office.
Once inside, I tore and crumpled the top page containing two meaningless telephone numbers.
Turning the page, I gulped. My heart jammed on its brakes.
Diane wrote this tragic farewell three years ago to the day.
Months before, a doctor examined her body ravaged by a heroic war with ALS, amyotrophic lateral sclerosis. She gave Diane 12 to16 months.
While Diane was one of the most sociable persons I have known, she stored precious thoughts internally.
She did not have to squint to see The End.
Achingly, this is what her heart told her to say:
Everyday Is Goodbye
The hills are thick and green,
As if they would reach out and hold me
A blanket to enfold me, to protect me
Green is the color of life.
When I die, bury me with something green
So that when my soul rises, it is covered in green.
2 Comments on “Everyday Is Goodbye, Diane Wrote”
God, through Matt, found that poem for you. Thank you God, and thank you Matt.
Thank you G-d for the sweet essence left for us by our loved ones, just like the color green, it is ever here with us…a gentle joy.